Oh holy crap I am heated. I am 35. I look like every other "typical" person my age, but I live in constant pain. Sometimes you can tell and sometimes you cannot. Some days are better than others. I use marijuana to help me ease and deal with my pain, deal with anxiety, appetite issues (stemming from 12+ years of being on morphine from pain), sleep issues, and to help me chill out after a long day at work. Yeah, I use it for non-medical reasons as well, what are you going to do about it? But tell me I am faking my pain to get my medical marijuana card, ok it is ON.
Every single day I wish at some point I were dead so I would no longer have to feel this hell on a daily basis. My muscles ache and refuse to relax. My bones ache and grind against each other in my back, I have degenerative disc disease. I use the corners of walls to dig into my back to break up the muscle cramps and this is not always helpful. I have cried myself to sleep countless nights because of this pain. I have fallen because my legs give out from under me at random times. This also causes other pain that I get to deal with because I refuse to take the drugs the doctors keep trying to shove down my throat. I have nerve damage and issues that send this unreal sharp pain shooting down my legs and arms. It hurts to stand for any period of time, sit for too long without stretching and getting up to readjust my back, and if I lay in bed too long the pain can be unbearable. I am constantly asking my ex-boyfriend to help me pop my back and rub my back - seriously annoying if you are on the receiving end of these requests daily.
For pain I was given morphine. For nerve damage Neurontin (I may spell some drug names wrong - you will get the idea of what I mean). Sleeping issues I have been prescribe numerous sleep aids. Nausea I was given Phenergan. I cannot even recall the other drugs I was on, but there was about 10 to 15 total daily. Now, I smoke pot. It covers everything and my side affects are giggles and munchies.
So, you think I am faking, fuck you. You do not know me or anyone else who lives in pain like me. Just because you do not see our health issues does NOT give you the right to accuse me of faking to get pot. If I were not in pain and wanted pot, I would get it. I don't NEED your fucking cards, I CHOOSE to do the right thing, unlike you.
Proud of you for posting girl. I'm so sorry you go through this pain. But way to go to stick up for your rights and your choice. Gee, a ton of labratory made, chemically filled crap or an herbal alternative?? Duh. As you know, I've also found an alternative and everyone can kiss my ass too!! Hang in there girl and FUCK 'EM!! ;)
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What a great post. It sounds like you have the same problems I suffer with. I have had scoliosis since I can remember and it continues to get worse.
ReplyDeleteI worked blue collar jobs most of my life and never wore a back brace or asked for any help because I was superman. I told others and myself that wearing a back brace was just to uncomfortable and got in the way, when all along I was worried about how it would look to others if I were the only one to ware one or the only SLACKER who needed help lifting.
I'd still be making good money and in less pain if I had been that slacker. Hind sight is 20/20 I guess.
I now have crushed every disc in my spine and degenerative disc disease.
So I find myself doing exactly what you describe with the corners to ease the cramping, bothering my wife constantly to rub my back. I currently take 11 pills a day to relieve the pain and some of those are to counteract the side effects of the other pills.
You probably also lean on the shopping carts when shopping. I know I do, and to be honest I sometimes look forward to going to going shopping because leaning on a cart brings more relief than my cane or anything LOL isn't that weird. My doctor says there is actually a name for people who lean on carts but I cant remember what he called it.
Tomorrow I go for an MRI to see how much damage has been caused to my nerves and to come up with a surgical plan of attack.
I have found that smoking any kind of Kush works best. Although I won't pass up any bud because it all brings relief. Kush actually seems to calm the burning in the spine and legs allot more than others.
Here's to hoping the idiots in charge will wake up and realize that Marijuana is not just for parties. It helps folks like us and allot of others who are worse off than we are, like Chemo and AIDS patients.
Love your blog and will be a regular reader.
Thanks and keep your spirits up.
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